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[Dec 1st @ 3pm ] I would have said something earlier but my computer is temporarily out of order. I WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD CARLY THAT JENNA SAID SHE DID COKE ALL THE TIME.  im not afraid to come right out and say it I told her. In casual conversation.  And jenna you did tell me that so dont even try to say you didnt. It was the night you were snorting sudafed. Dont call these girls stupid and immature when you're the one crying for attention. Honestly Jenna. Thats almost as immature as saying Mark hit you... and then telling us that he didn't.... Cry for attention? yeah i think so. How about sitting in your bedroom crying the whole night while you invited people over and left us sitting in your living room hmm? And you call me a shitty friend? Maybe instead of kicking Marli out of the bedroom and pouring your self on me and Lucas you should have kept marli in the room and talking to her. I thought she was your best friend hmmm? the truth comes out, + 6-up

[Aug 16th @ 1pm ] this is my fantastic UPDATE. I got my fucking apartment. Heck yeah. Moving next weekend. going to find a sweet fulltime job today.  have another surgery november decemberish, hanging out with lucas, marli and jenna alot cuz they're mah bitches n hoes. ummm so that was basically my fantastic update. SWEET + 10-up

Sweet Deals [Jul 17th @ 12pm ] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Avenged Sevenfold ] So last night Chris and I went to Jennas place. Lucas picked us up just before eight and Marli was already at Jennas. So we started the night off just talking and having a few drinks then we decided to go to Sev. I got nachos they were pretty tasty I LOADED them with Cheese. There was some loser kid hanging out outside sev with a broken leg. I think he had a thing for Marli! HA.  Anyways. Then we went to MCDONALDS. Well Chris being the big man that he is ordered... a double quarter pounder... with 6 extra patties AND bacon. It was the grossest thing I have ever seen. It was SO GREASY. Unfortunatly no one had a camera except me... and it was my cellphone... so I don't know how to get the pics on my computer. BLECH. Then we went looking for beer mart.  Then FINALLY back to Jennas. We watched some weird porn for a bit and then Chris and I cabbed home. It was fun times. So we woke up at 5:00 this morning so Chris could get to work. And the was the extent of my night/morning. + 5-up

[Jun 10th @ 6pm ] Last night I had such a good time! Thank you Marli for inviting me. I dont really remember getting home. I know I was supposed to bus with Chris, Jenna and Colin but Jenna and Colin disapeared. haha. I was okay until I was sleeping... Then I puked in my sleep it was pretty gross cuz it was all in my hair and stuff. So my mommy washed my sheets and made Chris and I hangover food. I'm sicck. BLAH.  Chris' elbow looks pretty sore... hah. OH MARLI HOW I LOVE THEE + 2-up

Kittie Kittie [Jun 4th @ 10am ] [ mood | in love ] [ music | Big Big Bikes (on TV) ] So I have a new kitten... I havn't named him yet... Any suggestions? Here are some pics... ( Meowww ) + 8-up

[May 31st @ 12pm ] She doesn't get enough cocaine, She doesn't get enough party, She doesn't get enough girls, She doesn't get enough.... She doesn't get enough money, She doesn't get enough sluts, She doesn't get enough hoes, She died from an overdose.... +

[May 30th @ 12pm ] All we want is a headrush. All we want is to get out of our skin for a while. We have nothing to lose because we don't have anything... anything we want, anyway. We used to hate people, now we just make fun of them - it's more effective that way. We don't live, we just scratch on day-to-day with nothing but matchbooks and sarcasm in our pockets and all we're waiting for is for something worth waiting for. Let's admit America gets the celebrities we deserve. Let's stop saying "don't quote me" because if no one quotes you, you probably haven't said a thing worth saying. We need something to kill the pain of all that nothing inside. We all just want to die a little bit. We fear that pop-culture is the only kind of culture we're ever gonna have. We want to stop reading magazines, stop watching TV, stop caring about Hollywood, but we're addicted to the things we hate. We don't run Washington and no one really does. Ask not what you can do for your country; ask what your country did to you. The only reason we're still alive is because someone has decided to let you live. We owe so much money we're not broke, we're broken; we're so poor we can't even pay attention. So what do you want? You want to be famous and rich and happy but you're terrified you have nothing to offer this world, nothing to say and no way to say it, but you can say it in a few languages. You are more than a sum of what you consume. Desire is not an occupation. You are ultimately thrilled and desperate, sky-high and fucked. Let's stop praying for someone to save us and start saving ourselves, let's stop this and start over. Let's go out - let's keep going! This is your life, this is your fucking life! We need something to kill the pain of all that nothing inside. Quit whining, you haven't done anything wrong because frankly you haven't done much of anything. Someone's writing down your mistakes. Someone's documenting your downfall. + 1-up

[May 29th @ 2pm ] Oh-a-oh You were the first one Oh-a-oh You were the last one. Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star. In my mind and in my car, We can't rewind we've gone too far Oh-a-a-a oh Oh-a-a-a oh Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star. +

[May 21st @ 6pm ] Soooooo... This is the most painful surgery recovery I've ever had. I've been taking t3's non-stop and I'm STILL in pain. Yeah if you dont know... Thats my eye, swollen and bloody. And those lines are stitches connected inside my bottom eye-lid and taped to my eyebrow. YEAH TAPED. So now that you all have lost your appetite... HAVE A GOOD NIGHT. And someone call me because I'm fucking bored/lonely. + 12-up

[May 19th @ 9pm ] I love pistachio pudding, and Chris. Ps. The surgery went perfectly... and I am In terrible pain... Even with the morphine and t3's + 2-up

[May 18th @ 9pm ] So I'm down to the one digit hour count to when I have to be at the hospital for surgery. I'm so overly surged with emotions right now. Yeah okay I'm feeling a little sorry for myself. "It could be worse" Well shut the fuck up. You don't know how I feel and it isn't worse okay. I'm not thinking about how it could be worse, I'm thinking about now... Right now. Why me? Right now I'm feeling: sad, excited, satisfied, scared, depressed, small, insignificant and alone all at once. I don't know whether to cry, laugh or break someones face. The worst thing is I had to stop eating an hour ago. You don't really know what hungry is until you CANT EAT. I know how much every one is sick of everyone complaining on live journal. Well I'm sorry. This is my fucking live journal and sometimes you just have to get everything out. Yeah, there are other ways to get everything out, but sometimes it's easier to do it when its NOT to someones face. I don't care who reads this. You can leave me comments on how silly I'm being for acting this way, you can tell me everything will be fine, you can tell me you're here for me and so on. I don't mean to sound like a bitch but, I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK RIGHT NOW. I just want someone to take my mind of it. Not constantly remind me how it will be okay. Stop asking me if I'm scared or if I'm all right. BECAUSE I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED AND NO I'M NOT OKAY. + 9-up

Nothing. [May 7th @ 2pm ] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Shakira - Objection ] Wow, It's been awhile. Not a lot has happened though.  I didn't get the apartment I wanted because I have no credit. LAME. Now that my cell phone is in my name and I have an HBC credit card, hopefully I will build some good credit. Anyways.  I got a new cat. His name is Jeremy Fisher and he is all black. Chris and I found him eating garbage in the back ally. I took him to the vet and he is disease free. (the cat not chris)   It's not like I have anything of importance to say... Sara and I will be hanging out next weekend (hopefully) and my surgery is in less than 2 weeks. Hello Anxiety. I guess thats all I have to type about right now. More updates.... one day. + 6-up

Not a lot [Apr 11th @ 12am ] I'm looking for apartments... So if anyone knows where there are some nice ones (in the downtown/st. james area) write a comment! Also... I want a white kitten... or any kitten that is adorable... SO if you know ANYONE getting rid of kittens... COMMENT... PS... COMMENT ANYWAYS. I need some friends. + 5-up

Bedknobs and Broomsticks [Apr 10th @ 10pm ] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Better shape up - Greese Soundtrack ] This is my new livejournal... Add me. + 1-up

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